It’s ok

have a love-hate relationship with this mascara.I tried to find a waterproof drugstore mascara that would create voluminous, long and feathery lashes for quite a while. Some didn't build up to the level that I wanted, others looked spidery. I eventually decided to give this a shot when I saw that Sephora had a travel sized version available and the price was comparable to that of a slightly more expensive drugstore mascara.I'm also trying to use travel sized mascaras after I realized that I can't finish a full sized mascara in 3 months (theoretically, this is how long you should use a mascara tube). Sometimes, the mascara gets clumpy by that time anyway. It's also more cost-effective and to some extent I guess it's less wasteful and damaging to the planet.I'm happy I did so, I've had this for almost 3 months now and it's still doing great. However, I don't wear mascara every single day, more like 3-4 days a week.What I loveI love how it makes my lashes look, the wand and the texture of the mascara can create natural lashes or almost fake looking lashes if you build it up (without a spidery look if you do it carefully enough). I like the way it looks so much I gave it 4 stars despite of the drawbacks.I also appreciate that they sell a travel sized version of it.Bonus: there are clear drops on the mascara tube, as if you splashed clear polish on it and let it dry. It feels quite interesting to the touch and also looks really nice.It's not extremely hard to remove (I'm using an oil-based makeup remover).What I don't likeIt smudges. Quite badly. I read some reviews here and some people don't have this issue. I wish I didn't have it either because I love the way it makes my lashes look. :(Perhaps my lids are more on the oily side. Still, no mascara had ever done this to me. From afar, I look like I have a few brow hairs in my crease after 3 hours hours of wearing this. I don't know how else to describe it, it looks funny. :))I somewhat solved this issue by using NYX proof it mascara top coat (waterproof mascara top coat), but it changes the look of the lashes. The top coat and the mascara underneath mix together and even if I'm careful, I still end up removing some of the volume length from my lashes (sometimes more from one eye than the other, which frustrates me even further).I should mention that the fact that it smudges is not the same thing as it not being waterproof. It is waterproof, but not long-lasting.In conclusion, I am quite sad that I have to look for another mascara, again. I really love the way it makes my lashes